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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter 2
Its impossible to take what happned in this moment with ignorance
its impossible to talk about what happned,i don’t think ever he will do that in this moment
but i want to save her
realy more think was risk case of mind could in any way kill faster if left it to go on.
How i sat like that i don’t know
but when i come to my sense i becom set alone with his boomb.
But his moto stil in my mind”i can share 4 wife”but in miror his eyes he has no one or maybe one in secret place.how can i dos’nt mind sharing his.its high prince that kind of infirno like danti way.or dan brown.still he can eat me simply. God .i miss my HOMS city in this forgnir city.i want big hug.i want wolk in old city and clock square to got my mind free.i want make ma prayer in khald ibn alwled mosque and hang near am alznar church .oh my city fed me tender like always.its hard way to experience this lesson of life whithout any desire to go out in your venes.i know homs love came in passion with lovly spirit.indeed faithfully.
I don’t have time to cry above the hot blood.
I take taxi to his home. With his surpris i stand in his door ask him if he has tea without sugar.i enter while lift him in the door. Then he come still surprise from change in my mood like ever,ask me how can i know his home
“i steal your pasowrd from 4 years and read your chat with her and you gave her that… Wher is she now?
“dead from 3 month with a non hodgkin”
“iam sorry”
“are you!
Any chance of try play mouse and cat with lith in this moment useless.then must experince silent lesson naw befor the storm come.
Lith went over to the near kitchen while i wondering if i should just run away from here while i still could.
Then i remamber jnaa
how i want to save her.
Then his sound come briskly
“told me have what in earth make you come to me so fast and exept.you look then like dead face you will see vampire”
“i will give you clue. But if i tell you the reason can…?”
“no…deal is deal. Whatever the resson.”
“why you jump to your own conclusions that refuse whithout hear…”
“no.”he cut in smoothly
“gave me chance to explain befor you ignor my beg”
“you know i will give you anything you want without anything but i have my reason”
“you don’t love me then”
“asmaa this time its different,tell me why”
“jnaa my bist friend a sweet gentle lovely who she never wished harm on anyone in her entire life.you can’t turn your back on her and her baby nour alhuda surely?
Please?”
his back to me with trust look and hope
“deal is deal.put your own pride and prejudices”
“emily bronte”
“no darling jane austin”
“wuthering heigh thin”
“yes emely”
“please be sense and sensibility”
“hahaha.deal is deal”
My heart sank and i want cold lith stubborn i know that befor.
I took another set then turned to the the wall
“yes .im prepared to do whaterver want”
challange always be back
i don’t have time to think about my punshment.he like that.
With hard eyes he start talk on the telephone to make our travit tommorw and owr mariag paper today..
The ice cold shivers up and down my spine and i noded that can i do.
Lith took all his time enjoying his win with smile playing about his lips with lazily tone said
“i promis not take you until you give it free.we will sleep in two room .but not for ever ..”
“but whz you want travel with me i can do it.i will not escape”
“you will making not single travile without me at your side.anything you may need will be through me”
“so childish”
“tell me more abou jnaa”
“her husband had died when he was in prison from two month.leaving her with his baby alone in the big war with big famly outside in the world escape from the war machine.ablack song this ignorance to care with miserable way
That all not the point.my best friend jna run away flight from badly madly dangerous sick .you know that tretment and dr.jmal mony and his inflounce throw his combany beauty and healthy can do it.that’s all burnes from wood to wood conscious at the way i can’t realiz that you in that doman.
You can find pleasure in conscious ignorance .
You can like rereading me if you almost forgotte that.
I care for here
must be me here
with your treatment and dr jmal to go to press to help jnaa and many how need it in syria.its painted fieled with red and what can i lose more.
You want your deal for heal take it. I have not any time to spind to discover whether ash can reply
i lost all the trees by foreigner
now at this moment jna and hir baby nour alhuda need mony and care and protact
whativer the badly price i will give the miracles to come true
under stands the circly facts. That life was symbol of war questing death long befor it was a symbol of lumph questing death…

Aside

Homs moon rise over black stone


Since the war being cannot change.the love must result a change in the whispear of mode of looking at window of life,from a new shadow of thought regarding it.
sort of slave by light force.
the personal interest in this matter.except no escape from the truth.
glady with love.
and found to be little else.
this hs nutural of love result of life.
that light begins to show upon us
i realize the fear given us the truth of love
the love upon the war by both side are equally
it is simply
thhs philosophy warm our mind
spoken like marriage which the two have become one as they always were be.
not like twilight story here we tolk about
maybe we at first blind to force this truth
but rude life make it in any way.
it is for reason to be shure
wher i set naw look throw window of this trip throw the wide sky
see the point
point of life lay over may stres.
For the whole the war is the temple of love.
bear this in ma heart nothing is great as this result.
i remamber now the first intervew with my first step in this story with Dr.jmal
who my mind worded beon his stone black eyes when his order come like faith
still i express the hope to exept my c v to work with his stafe as ph.
i remmber how i get out of his ofice
with closed teeth and expressed his words
“fly to sindpad”
what in earth must to do
fly and for home
why he now
i don’t think circumstance determined me to accept the invitation to that man to resarch about a new drug and how discover that
why i
i still new in this doman
like he fire me in his reqist but must i do that to have work
but why he?
“what can i pet you ?”
i looked up from my mobile for moment.
i short in reply in that moment.
that kind of man who spent most of his free time at the prayer in sufii mode
set befor me
“coffe..black”
i recognized his by photograph from his nimbuzz profile
when we had tolk throw it befor we give up befor 4 years.
i changed my name thats tine at first and so many time over our chat room
but now what
the waitress retun with my coffe and his tea mug
after uncomfortable smile
“i have got here coz your new discover only i have a few question”
i frozen when he return his gaze from away.
“asmaa..please.. i’am not with them. we’d be meeting under far different circumstance.
why went away like that.
are your famely safe throw war in syria
why you with this company
you know that i don’t love petrol moy
i just love you coz that i naw here
you are here in jordan with me will be safe.
give up to all thing and come with me”
“not like that .lith..i just have a few questions. i want talk about your treatment”
the words had slowly left his lovly lips
“i won’t talk about that
you hear me.leave me out of this.or i swear..?
“fine .lith.we will talk about that another time or you’ll never see me again.
i used to work for beauty combany.i really don’t know why you jumped far like that.
the war crush me in syria .more talk i can’t speake about.and this work in petrol land like yot name it give me birlland step to go on.”
“crossing to death line that”
“the death line what we see in blody war hinding more time”
“and my lote what?
outside your land?”
chill ran down me i can’t glanced around
i don’t love to be watched by his strong eyes.
“the only way you’ll truly be safe with me ”
“you know we stopped this talk many time befor.don’t you”
“what do you thind you still proud person .the war machine don’t break you ever”
“that’s why i am here naw.for work”
the fire was already jumpier in his eyes likd afrog on hot pavement.
“you know how i care so much about yot without much hope
like you see now
i tell you
you want what you want.must be pay for it.
marry me…asmaaa….”
this story from imaginaint maybe not real maybe yes…

Aside

Old soul


HE
i want ablogiz
about every single moment i spend it
without you
take ma love
i want ablogize
about all the wound
my old soul
tuch pain night
your streat have my light
i will have the all paper of years
that you love it
ma love can’t wait

Aside

All the all


HE
I am think to love another love
and third and four and endliss more
and i will not forget that
i love you and die for you
cous you still all the all
that the case
how i love from atumn to spring
how will fill about my ach
if i have wound and pain
if i don’t have your sound and smile
and my life crumple like
damb life
i will forget
my place tender with your love

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Find


SHE
if you want keep yourself away
what i made with my own
with wound and pain
if you wolk and find another day
how like me you will find
ma soulmat
jealous i
i don’t care
you exept to live my heart
with you hand and forget
how live
if i have other life