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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter nine
Sun got in her coffin..
the moon rise with a loveres bitis..
all the thing upper..
I don’t know how any of the storm passed out or still..
For the rest of ride to our home we made alitle tolk.i feel gulty about what i forget.so i keep being patient and loving some talk.i needed to get from needed to be alone.i want another start but still i shouldn’t offered to leave any page of my mystriss unturned.because i was siting without any hint that made me scared and wanted to know.i had to get out of my dreams,and got control of moment and focus on what had happned and my brain had sliped out of it.
Forget had mad me hurt ,like abovious trap.i think Lith had liked it when he set a trap.because then be loved when i run like victims came to them.
I think actuly l know where they where and i go dirctly to them.
They was the light lift to me,because i was anxious to start but realy ineeded to get what i forget it.
Realy i want remmber all it,like johnny in dead zoom with Steven King.i know that i haven’t accedant and i wan’t hide but still somthing hide after all.
Johnny mom said and i loved more whin Lith come out with her said” don’t hide in the cave,or make him have to send a big fish to swallow you up”
oh i want my fight really.but ther somthing hide in dead zone..
I want clear all up what that.
In this car somthing i feel like in the lord of file,i and Lith lost in island but Lith know and still i without map.
I know Lith know about what i lost ,but he want me do my work.oh how hard that.just one hint.
I wan’t to spend my whole time like that.
I can’t be out of fears also.
That atternative is worse.
The attack of brain fever has left its criminal mark on me,well i know that .God know that and want it all.that all lately drive in run me and another to be mad.
What else i wait light to come.
I know that i have work must to be do.but what that?
Why hide,or i hide from that,no there another face of coin to show.
The truth must flow up take his mark.
Lith tutch my hand and i noded we near our home.
not fear but pease but not like any pease still.
Somthing strange about what i feel.
I want my war to be fair at the end.
I remmber Khaled ibn Tollon how take the Anddloss said to his army” the sea befor you,and enemy behind you,what you prefer to chose”..

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter 8
how nice to be fly free-to be free when we can see the light shining even through the dark of our dreams.
But dream can’t go for ever.
Just wishes go far from the death .
I opend my sleepless eyes upon lith face.he was standing near me.holding my hand tightiy in his own. I made a hard effort to speake.lith face danced with softly light smile..
“welcom.you are coming back”
how my heart want to escape,only lovely power kept me to go throught peace.
“i can’t escape .you know..you know..”
“haha.deal is deal”
“yes”
how i ask weaving fighiting off wave of nausea.
“how long?how long have i been in dreans”
“some time”
“how long”
“little long time”
“yes.ma soulmat.give up your game.i want ..is it some moons? I feel confused..but..”i sobbed.
“you neednot fence with me how long?”
i breating irregularly and sequeezed my eyes and start waiting for an answer.
Then lith spoke in his eyes.
“five or five too?”i asked
“very much more than that you know”
“more than”
“yes..more”
“many sun rise then”
i shut my eyes tight..and sat looking about me..
“how many weeks?”
“you must be prepared to be surprised?”
“you have fun on me”
“don’t look like that”
“iam dreaming.thats is not nice .this is a big hard joke you have it upon me”
“iam not..you kow me.why you don’t remember”
“why i ask you if i can.”
suddenly l laughed through my tears like a foolish.
When i listen to his joke.
“two months”
how dark and gastly..hopeless my moon swift the clouds night.
“you can’t imagine what it feels like to huge you agains”he whispered with his arms around me.
“then we married at last”
“alovely wedding.and we have a baby too..”
“baby..how..why.. I don’t remember”
“put your hand at your womb ,then you well feel it”
“you are made another joke again”
“no.. It was brain fever.you have to keep quiet..you are getting well again.and you well remember every thing”
“i well try”
But i turned to lith with puzzled eyes
“i wonder..janaa hasn’t been call me..how is she”
lith eyes were in searching
“good than ever.she’s fly away”
“oh..i wonder if she has call me”
“not to my knowledge”
“she hardly ever not call and you don’t know where is she gone.from hiding place incide my brain alovely voice calling me.i can’t quite understand it.wher is..?”
“asmaaa..my love.i think you know that she has passed away.”
“that was the thing ican’t remember.witl you pleace tell me how it happened?i wand you help.iam not a fraid of truth.i am strong now”
“tell me first what you remember”
“the call but i don’t understand”
“you do..you know”
“i do..but why that awful storm..oh poor child noar alhada..”
from my head to foot i was shuddering.
Ther vision apper to me at last and i went speakless.
What afrightful day it was
that befor chrismass day
the door open wide
the light fly away
free i see it free
unconsiciously
hardly belove
that hard whisper nightmare
that hard whisper nightmare
jnaa i miss you…

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter seven
no wonder..runining.
And the sun near our head and the snow crush softly under our foots.
The suffer come true.
Run and look at the lay rocus.
Look at that snow that has shone for ever.
The white.. The pure.
What rush into the black wall..
The blinding light we accept it.
Was in our laugh and ghastly faces..
Only moment ago i had been feeling in suffer.
My brain is not like what it was there drowsines.
I spoke to Jnaa.. But Jnaa like shadow fly away…
The confusion i can’t express it.
Keep my mind run also.
The snow was enough to cold the wormth.
But the trouble had to care.
I don’t drink
i know that
anumber of children playing along the snow.
I stopped and regarded the artist snow maker.
I wonder what the trap i lore in.
Its strang state.
Jna have run and trun too
with lovely smile and nice dress.
We played with dull that have eyes blue.
In our childhood was true.
We know at all the doors that we have seen.
Like old time that in laugh disapper..
I run too.
Our laugh from childhœd come alive.
I call her and still she run
her golden hair fly like awing in the dream.
From beginning to end
ther’s been the Homs war
i ‘ve understood that
we run away from the war jar.
Tha is so .. At the snow it happens..
No doubt it improve the make ane dream..
The naturally thought has been hot in my brain.
Thought tha hearing an angel voice.
” lived straght
take care of Nour alhuda”
i catch Jnaa and tolked more like old time in privat way..
I ask her”where she was. And where she want to go.”
she recognise my stopdly hungry look to truth.
Like sleep voice slowly her come.
“if you can understand me.noo lose in surpise..
I chang my mind
there was a lot of chang
among other thought
i have run through
i should have
my husbend wait me
there you wired i know you are.
As matter of fact.
I must go with him
nothing has been done else
it wouldn’t be bad stop
just take care of baby.
It wouldn’t bad step.
Just take care
and she vanchid in amagic way.
With her husben offer me goodbay.
And that the snow with my though melt away..

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Chapter six
while the phone play wild symphone , the storm have put around..
How i could bear alone all that.
Wait till the storm pass!
The people run wild in every way.
Shadow of manything also fly ,like thee toke some drug.
Sleeper they wolk around.
I catch someone in fever reply.
That ther gold here around.
Where here i ask more.
No one can ma reply offer.
Then i wolk around.
The mystry of letter found the Sadad vilage place.
In Bible found that name.
There gift like a magic or somthing great.
All search around.
I walk to Karetten city near Sadad vilag be.
The sound of sky ungry reaply.
The rain run in floud eround.
Take the animals and tents and dusts in his way.
That not fun realy not fun.
I don’t want relic or anciant somthing.
I reast in that city look to vistor in vision way.
How to vist Palmira and Alher palace also.but the fear grow more.
The red run down in hesterical mood.
Kill here..kill there ..
More secrem.
Why iam here.idon’t remamber .
Everywhere also was die.
The dust likes dancers or vambire replay.
Have someone led me?
The tomb of my soul with carless dark lay.
Whats the matter?
Why iam here.i want light .the fever of anxity come back.
I had begged the drk to run away.
Moment after moment still i wait.

The warmth of the light sunshine i want.spread everywhere .it was only after that black wall.
No sound of birds.
Iam sure that iam het the storm.
The wind sing over the echo of voices.
The storm was at my mind.
I think i don’t know .but i know.
I heard the voice call me over the ach.
Rising rising rising more.
At open door come the light of sunshine.
My heart told me
ma heart spoke
iam wandering through my dark
in which part i have in
iam motionless
silly art of thing
i think the fog fade over the cure of suffer budy.
Whats the matter?
Give me your hand.
Many hand lay off.
Can someone help me
then at open door come sound sing again.
Abeutfull song.
Tha full with dremas.
From my childhood i know.
That the song we sing at the road to the school.
Oh…Jnaa..Jnaa..
After the door half open.smile to me.
At the snow…
She run
i run after her
and she sing
i calleed her
Jnaa..Jnaa

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Chapter five
what make that come true against our wish that pass under our eyes hardly to admit with that .but that the life wish.
“you are getting magnanimous ” and he lughed
” no .. Iam only trying to be fair. That must be to do ”
“aha…of course.”
“that like uranus make troubles at me to end the life.”
“why not tell that the jupiter benfit to help marriage with partiner.don’t shrink from your deal ”
“you are joking..aha..and i am not in that mood yet.you make war dropping out.it was time you know”
“i am not hero and love passowrd game.iam only ordinary human mortal need to rest .you know that.the people will die of violance , famine , dissease. And old age.. And other will be born to take there place .life is life”
“i think will aplogize from the dead of bad men and bad one will do whatever they think now at this time hardly to admit..”
lith and i had been at least understand the differante between what was and done in past,and what was and done at our moment.
But still i think that there deffrent betwen soulmat and lover…
We crouched in the living room when the door ring fly the toooon…
It was Gassan the friend of lith and hasbend of Lilaa his sister.he still mad at her becaus she want divorce.and he dr.in old art .Lith told me about that.we talked lettle and he congratulate us.i made tea and went to lith bedroom.
This first time i enter it .it so nice with bage colore.ther books in the table in the corner.i read the name memorie of Victor Hogo.some to Dostafiske .Danti,Poul Couelo,and arabic old poem some to Abo Fras Alhmadane and Almtnbi. There book named by paper of dead sea.i read it so beuty.some book a bout sufi way. I see aook near his bed.i hold it.its by Tagor .the crescent moon .i open it and read.
Ah,these,jasmin.ah..who was it coloured that little frock bless.this little heart child,how happe you are.sitting in the dust…
I began to cry when i read the poem the begining.start with:”where have i come from…where dis you bick me up?.”
iamnot notice lith when enter .he see me and ask me why i was cry.
“i remmber nour alhuda now,when i read this poem..
Iam just thinking about it when i read it thats all”
“why you are not thinking about our one”
i colored
“when time come then will happen..with all my lovining and your .
the sound will ring but now tho only wunted to that baby now while her mother fly her travel”
“it was just tomorw then we will fly also.have you photo to the child in your phone”
“yes”
and he see by his eyes how nour alhuda was beutiful and pure.under that horror lost her father and her mother God help her..
Her grean eyes..and moony face with bronz skine and sparks eyes.that was miss of heart .shall i talk to sky of the world.to have fruit of the city .w4ile white ash murmur of the Homs though throw darkness of the war…

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Chapter four
i feel like that iam under mikroskope.the heat of eay of the tiger behind me.then come sound make me feel strange.the sound of surprise tone.
“what’s wronge”lith asked me
“bad and good …nothing more wrong”
he setted into the kitchen seat,look like he was geting so philosophical in that moment.
“what’s so bad first”
“janaa..down in lonoly suffer soul like she gave up throug nusty air.she want be pass like a whisper throw our laugher open window of memory..she is in hospital now.shrink lost more of blood and many other.she have 3 blood and serum bag.injury in her stomach this time from killer pain tab.
Near in thes time butterflies dance with jasmine in the garder near the kitchen. Lith said:” in irland all men know that butterflies are the souls of the dead wating for the moment,when men enter purgatoration”
“aha”
“you know Rania passed all that padly drail,had laid at death door all throw one dreadful night while our hand waited togather”
i beagan to realized that for ma soulmat who has seen suffering and death in his lovely nearest and who fond himself finely powerless to allerate the one or avent to another.i share him this also.
I hold his world’s sad in my arms of mine. Try to saved amagic to give a little treasure and peace and light to give up our fear of losing.
After while of silince
“i was wondering what you done at 6 clock here”
“i picked up on the first ring because though jnaa..and it was jnaa calling.it was a sad conversation.she miserable.i hate that feel. And her baby alone with strange.i wish but..
“don’t cry thing will get better”
” when.. Who faster i want to fly over the eay of the moment to give her arest and happy life again..”
the rest of couble moment made us on the power of imagination.then lith light on radio to listen to the world news while he search in fm station come beatles songs out to life,oh how life is life.
“whats the good if there any come with…”
“dr.jmal has finshed the travel paper to jna and her baby.he will make her travel soon if her condition good he want you to talk with him throw skipe at 7 or 8…”
“aha..good..what you ar doing in my kitchin at 6 o’clock.i wake up cos the smell and noise here.nice the hot in the kitchin when we wake up”
“iam sorry..but nothing more..i feel so bad then i try to make some pizza and chease and zaater manaqish and some griba as a desert.don’t be angry.i can’t help with bad news.i want stop thinking.i want think any more”
“stop now..i am hangry.. We have noise day..and i wake up allready early then i will made tea and we will take our breakfast soon..”
“why not coffey at first”
“no tea and pizza first”
“ok”
it always took less moment to yield to my soulmat behests than to argu against..
Then we had our breakfast and while i made coffey lith made some call.his sound fly out.i got a glass of water and tried to clear my throut when i see the looking lith face..
“There is not airplane today.cos the chrissmes.all the seet has taken.and dr.jmal whant to pike with us some resarsh and paper and patient from alzaatre to make our intervew with tv and press”
realy that was a bit of fool.how life brake and make fun at me it’s not fair .i know its perfectly well…

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Chapter three
befor i could say anything more.he’d taken off.leaving to do our logical paper and our marriage with help holy man in the mosque
i told my self to breath deeply befor i could sea goodbay to my free wild bird in indian way
but what help me more that a vision of the future when met our eyes like other jewels in which gleamed the beuty of our soulmat truth.beuty of our trust bond.and detrimin to make the miricle true in our retian from hotel in the car, i ask lith
“why really you marry me ?”
“i wanted your innocence wanted help.
I needed it
your love giving and giving
just wher you so long you can
that road what i freindly with
you know that
why we wonder to take one more
this time
togather
like one.soulmat.”
marriage had been no less fight than any war.just start now.
That legal right paper must be to do .and we did.
With money we can have a magic wish.
And wish come fast
with money we can have gun,marry whatever you want,and free hanged man.that old saga.
I made some call phone in the car with jnaa and dr.jmal office and chik up the phon call when lith fire his words.
“i wonder how that a maried poet well fell about our?”
“you think ther’d be somthing little exciting about that.a maried poet… I laughed with amusment .we have just a little friendly talk and card what you think”
“i think now about Alfred de Mussed and George Sand,Gassan Kanafane and Gada Alsman.”
“aha,you’re all wrong if you think we care about us like you think,really you stubborn selfish jealus character”
we arrived to home,he set himself out to take what he wantet with more silinse nervious in his private space.he live me alone in the home to made his alasr prayer in mosque.
I open my bag that we had taken from hotel and take a blue dress to get my shour.
Under the a rough case we held some of hope more than at some actually awhole symphony of hope in the life to done that right.
I take my phone still i am aware of that forgiven.my mind cannot pross of any more detail at that moment.
Think and think and think
what a goal in killing innocent people like damn hell that way ?
Blody terrorism in gray diffrent way.just God protect us. That our moto in Homs.and God alone whant that that way for point we can’t see it now.no fact in faith or any intelligence or nothing more will does diffrent protect us.
Lith come back with alovely women congratulate me and kissed and huged me betwen a lovely tears she said:”i heard a clever lady asking whather the new moon always appears in the same day of the month.and she added that perhaps it better not to know when or in what part of the sky to expect it,its appearance is always apleasant surprise”
this woman is lith sister ,made the food,mansf and somthing with gamid made of milk and bried and chiken ,realy a delicious food.
I remmber our food in Homs.the koba and ybraq and shakrea and maqloba many many delicious food i missed.
We toke our dinner then sister lith live us alone with more kisses.
It was like i was dreaming as i walked across the sand past all of the coloring fact.
Lith was watching me.
“whats up.lith”
“nothing”
i take my phon and set near him in the sofa while he start watch tv and start read in wattpad.
To make efort to work my mind out of that strange moment.
“what you do ”
“i read book,the eye of zaiton,about araminia by talbot mundy.you know this tales of nineteen centuries ago.the turke and italean war”
“aha..i read past that.Omar Khayyam says:abook of verse beneath the bough aloaf of bread.a jug of win and thow sitting beside me in the wider ness.o wilderness were paradise enow…
give up and watch tv with me .now time to Oprah program.the life is beauty.Talked about soul by many vistor today with sufi tetcher”
“nice.i heared about agreat sufi who said that apilgrimag to the place of the wise is to escap the flam of separation”
we talked more and more with ahot tea the hours passed in search about symbol code.like old time.my soulmat.i try to block out eveything about other though tonight.
Lith taked his alood and start playing old andluseat song.the song all about being in love young and free in life.
I gave a deep sight of child sleep in asofa and fall in sefty peacfly sleap..
First gleam of the sun come behind the tall bulding on the east.glanced in the glory dancing out tith lovly hope to light anew wornder of life.
I wake up in my phon ring chicago song”if you leave me now”
that was jnaa
realy life surprises us when we least expect it.i look throw the window to that oak and olive treas in near streat.i like trees .we have more in our old city Homs.our roots there.needed love and tender to strengthen them…