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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter five
what make that come true against our wish that pass under our eyes hardly to admit with that .but that the life wish.
“you are getting magnanimous ” and he lughed
” no .. Iam only trying to be fair. That must be to do ”
“aha…of course.”
“that like uranus make troubles at me to end the life.”
“why not tell that the jupiter benfit to help marriage with partiner.don’t shrink from your deal ”
“you are joking..aha..and i am not in that mood yet.you make war dropping out.it was time you know”
“i am not hero and love passowrd game.iam only ordinary human mortal need to rest .you know that.the people will die of violance , famine , dissease. And old age.. And other will be born to take there place .life is life”
“i think will aplogize from the dead of bad men and bad one will do whatever they think now at this time hardly to admit..”
lith and i had been at least understand the differante between what was and done in past,and what was and done at our moment.
But still i think that there deffrent betwen soulmat and lover…
We crouched in the living room when the door ring fly the toooon…
It was Gassan the friend of lith and hasbend of Lilaa his sister.he still mad at her becaus she want divorce.and he dr.in old art .Lith told me about that.we talked lettle and he congratulate us.i made tea and went to lith bedroom.
This first time i enter it .it so nice with bage colore.ther books in the table in the corner.i read the name memorie of Victor Hogo.some to Dostafiske .Danti,Poul Couelo,and arabic old poem some to Abo Fras Alhmadane and Almtnbi. There book named by paper of dead sea.i read it so beuty.some book a bout sufi way. I see aook near his bed.i hold it.its by Tagor .the crescent moon .i open it and read.
Ah,these,jasmin.ah..who was it coloured that little frock bless.this little heart child,how happe you are.sitting in the dust…
I began to cry when i read the poem the begining.start with:”where have i come from…where dis you bick me up?.”
iamnot notice lith when enter .he see me and ask me why i was cry.
“i remmber nour alhuda now,when i read this poem..
Iam just thinking about it when i read it thats all”
“why you are not thinking about our one”
i colored
“when time come then will happen..with all my lovining and your .
the sound will ring but now tho only wunted to that baby now while her mother fly her travel”
“it was just tomorw then we will fly also.have you photo to the child in your phone”
“yes”
and he see by his eyes how nour alhuda was beutiful and pure.under that horror lost her father and her mother God help her..
Her grean eyes..and moony face with bronz skine and sparks eyes.that was miss of heart .shall i talk to sky of the world.to have fruit of the city .w4ile white ash murmur of the Homs though throw darkness of the war…

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter four
i feel like that iam under mikroskope.the heat of eay of the tiger behind me.then come sound make me feel strange.the sound of surprise tone.
“what’s wronge”lith asked me
“bad and good …nothing more wrong”
he setted into the kitchen seat,look like he was geting so philosophical in that moment.
“what’s so bad first”
“janaa..down in lonoly suffer soul like she gave up throug nusty air.she want be pass like a whisper throw our laugher open window of memory..she is in hospital now.shrink lost more of blood and many other.she have 3 blood and serum bag.injury in her stomach this time from killer pain tab.
Near in thes time butterflies dance with jasmine in the garder near the kitchen. Lith said:” in irland all men know that butterflies are the souls of the dead wating for the moment,when men enter purgatoration”
“aha”
“you know Rania passed all that padly drail,had laid at death door all throw one dreadful night while our hand waited togather”
i beagan to realized that for ma soulmat who has seen suffering and death in his lovely nearest and who fond himself finely powerless to allerate the one or avent to another.i share him this also.
I hold his world’s sad in my arms of mine. Try to saved amagic to give a little treasure and peace and light to give up our fear of losing.
After while of silince
“i was wondering what you done at 6 clock here”
“i picked up on the first ring because though jnaa..and it was jnaa calling.it was a sad conversation.she miserable.i hate that feel. And her baby alone with strange.i wish but..
“don’t cry thing will get better”
” when.. Who faster i want to fly over the eay of the moment to give her arest and happy life again..”
the rest of couble moment made us on the power of imagination.then lith light on radio to listen to the world news while he search in fm station come beatles songs out to life,oh how life is life.
“whats the good if there any come with…”
“dr.jmal has finshed the travel paper to jna and her baby.he will make her travel soon if her condition good he want you to talk with him throw skipe at 7 or 8…”
“aha..good..what you ar doing in my kitchin at 6 o’clock.i wake up cos the smell and noise here.nice the hot in the kitchin when we wake up”
“iam sorry..but nothing more..i feel so bad then i try to make some pizza and chease and zaater manaqish and some griba as a desert.don’t be angry.i can’t help with bad news.i want stop thinking.i want think any more”
“stop now..i am hangry.. We have noise day..and i wake up allready early then i will made tea and we will take our breakfast soon..”
“why not coffey at first”
“no tea and pizza first”
“ok”
it always took less moment to yield to my soulmat behests than to argu against..
Then we had our breakfast and while i made coffey lith made some call.his sound fly out.i got a glass of water and tried to clear my throut when i see the looking lith face..
“There is not airplane today.cos the chrissmes.all the seet has taken.and dr.jmal whant to pike with us some resarsh and paper and patient from alzaatre to make our intervew with tv and press”
realy that was a bit of fool.how life brake and make fun at me it’s not fair .i know its perfectly well…

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter three
befor i could say anything more.he’d taken off.leaving to do our logical paper and our marriage with help holy man in the mosque
i told my self to breath deeply befor i could sea goodbay to my free wild bird in indian way
but what help me more that a vision of the future when met our eyes like other jewels in which gleamed the beuty of our soulmat truth.beuty of our trust bond.and detrimin to make the miricle true in our retian from hotel in the car, i ask lith
“why really you marry me ?”
“i wanted your innocence wanted help.
I needed it
your love giving and giving
just wher you so long you can
that road what i freindly with
you know that
why we wonder to take one more
this time
togather
like one.soulmat.”
marriage had been no less fight than any war.just start now.
That legal right paper must be to do .and we did.
With money we can have a magic wish.
And wish come fast
with money we can have gun,marry whatever you want,and free hanged man.that old saga.
I made some call phone in the car with jnaa and dr.jmal office and chik up the phon call when lith fire his words.
“i wonder how that a maried poet well fell about our?”
“you think ther’d be somthing little exciting about that.a maried poet… I laughed with amusment .we have just a little friendly talk and card what you think”
“i think now about Alfred de Mussed and George Sand,Gassan Kanafane and Gada Alsman.”
“aha,you’re all wrong if you think we care about us like you think,really you stubborn selfish jealus character”
we arrived to home,he set himself out to take what he wantet with more silinse nervious in his private space.he live me alone in the home to made his alasr prayer in mosque.
I open my bag that we had taken from hotel and take a blue dress to get my shour.
Under the a rough case we held some of hope more than at some actually awhole symphony of hope in the life to done that right.
I take my phone still i am aware of that forgiven.my mind cannot pross of any more detail at that moment.
Think and think and think
what a goal in killing innocent people like damn hell that way ?
Blody terrorism in gray diffrent way.just God protect us. That our moto in Homs.and God alone whant that that way for point we can’t see it now.no fact in faith or any intelligence or nothing more will does diffrent protect us.
Lith come back with alovely women congratulate me and kissed and huged me betwen a lovely tears she said:”i heard a clever lady asking whather the new moon always appears in the same day of the month.and she added that perhaps it better not to know when or in what part of the sky to expect it,its appearance is always apleasant surprise”
this woman is lith sister ,made the food,mansf and somthing with gamid made of milk and bried and chiken ,realy a delicious food.
I remmber our food in Homs.the koba and ybraq and shakrea and maqloba many many delicious food i missed.
We toke our dinner then sister lith live us alone with more kisses.
It was like i was dreaming as i walked across the sand past all of the coloring fact.
Lith was watching me.
“whats up.lith”
“nothing”
i take my phon and set near him in the sofa while he start watch tv and start read in wattpad.
To make efort to work my mind out of that strange moment.
“what you do ”
“i read book,the eye of zaiton,about araminia by talbot mundy.you know this tales of nineteen centuries ago.the turke and italean war”
“aha..i read past that.Omar Khayyam says:abook of verse beneath the bough aloaf of bread.a jug of win and thow sitting beside me in the wider ness.o wilderness were paradise enow…
give up and watch tv with me .now time to Oprah program.the life is beauty.Talked about soul by many vistor today with sufi tetcher”
“nice.i heared about agreat sufi who said that apilgrimag to the place of the wise is to escap the flam of separation”
we talked more and more with ahot tea the hours passed in search about symbol code.like old time.my soulmat.i try to block out eveything about other though tonight.
Lith taked his alood and start playing old andluseat song.the song all about being in love young and free in life.
I gave a deep sight of child sleep in asofa and fall in sefty peacfly sleap..
First gleam of the sun come behind the tall bulding on the east.glanced in the glory dancing out tith lovly hope to light anew wornder of life.
I wake up in my phon ring chicago song”if you leave me now”
that was jnaa
realy life surprises us when we least expect it.i look throw the window to that oak and olive treas in near streat.i like trees .we have more in our old city Homs.our roots there.needed love and tender to strengthen them…

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Chapter 2
Its impossible to take what happned in this moment with ignorance
its impossible to talk about what happned,i don’t think ever he will do that in this moment
but i want to save her
realy more think was risk case of mind could in any way kill faster if left it to go on.
How i sat like that i don’t know
but when i come to my sense i becom set alone with his boomb.
But his moto stil in my mind”i can share 4 wife”but in miror his eyes he has no one or maybe one in secret place.how can i dos’nt mind sharing his.its high prince that kind of infirno like danti way.or dan brown.still he can eat me simply. God .i miss my HOMS city in this forgnir city.i want big hug.i want wolk in old city and clock square to got my mind free.i want make ma prayer in khald ibn alwled mosque and hang near am alznar church .oh my city fed me tender like always.its hard way to experience this lesson of life whithout any desire to go out in your venes.i know homs love came in passion with lovly spirit.indeed faithfully.
I don’t have time to cry above the hot blood.
I take taxi to his home. With his surpris i stand in his door ask him if he has tea without sugar.i enter while lift him in the door. Then he come still surprise from change in my mood like ever,ask me how can i know his home
“i steal your pasowrd from 4 years and read your chat with her and you gave her that… Wher is she now?
“dead from 3 month with a non hodgkin”
“iam sorry”
“are you!
Any chance of try play mouse and cat with lith in this moment useless.then must experince silent lesson naw befor the storm come.
Lith went over to the near kitchen while i wondering if i should just run away from here while i still could.
Then i remamber jnaa
how i want to save her.
Then his sound come briskly
“told me have what in earth make you come to me so fast and exept.you look then like dead face you will see vampire”
“i will give you clue. But if i tell you the reason can…?”
“no…deal is deal. Whatever the resson.”
“why you jump to your own conclusions that refuse whithout hear…”
“no.”he cut in smoothly
“gave me chance to explain befor you ignor my beg”
“you know i will give you anything you want without anything but i have my reason”
“you don’t love me then”
“asmaa this time its different,tell me why”
“jnaa my bist friend a sweet gentle lovely who she never wished harm on anyone in her entire life.you can’t turn your back on her and her baby nour alhuda surely?
Please?”
his back to me with trust look and hope
“deal is deal.put your own pride and prejudices”
“emily bronte”
“no darling jane austin”
“wuthering heigh thin”
“yes emely”
“please be sense and sensibility”
“hahaha.deal is deal”
My heart sank and i want cold lith stubborn i know that befor.
I took another set then turned to the the wall
“yes .im prepared to do whaterver want”
challange always be back
i don’t have time to think about my punshment.he like that.
With hard eyes he start talk on the telephone to make our travit tommorw and owr mariag paper today..
The ice cold shivers up and down my spine and i noded that can i do.
Lith took all his time enjoying his win with smile playing about his lips with lazily tone said
“i promis not take you until you give it free.we will sleep in two room .but not for ever ..”
“but whz you want travel with me i can do it.i will not escape”
“you will making not single travile without me at your side.anything you may need will be through me”
“so childish”
“tell me more abou jnaa”
“her husband had died when he was in prison from two month.leaving her with his baby alone in the big war with big famly outside in the world escape from the war machine.ablack song this ignorance to care with miserable way
That all not the point.my best friend jna run away flight from badly madly dangerous sick .you know that tretment and dr.jmal mony and his inflounce throw his combany beauty and healthy can do it.that’s all burnes from wood to wood conscious at the way i can’t realiz that you in that doman.
You can find pleasure in conscious ignorance .
You can like rereading me if you almost forgotte that.
I care for here
must be me here
with your treatment and dr jmal to go to press to help jnaa and many how need it in syria.its painted fieled with red and what can i lose more.
You want your deal for heal take it. I have not any time to spind to discover whether ash can reply
i lost all the trees by foreigner
now at this moment jna and hir baby nour alhuda need mony and care and protact
whativer the badly price i will give the miracles to come true
under stands the circly facts. That life was symbol of war questing death long befor it was a symbol of lumph questing death…

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Homs moon rise over black stone


Since the war being cannot change.the love must result a change in the whispear of mode of looking at window of life,from a new shadow of thought regarding it.
sort of slave by light force.
the personal interest in this matter.except no escape from the truth.
glady with love.
and found to be little else.
this hs nutural of love result of life.
that light begins to show upon us
i realize the fear given us the truth of love
the love upon the war by both side are equally
it is simply
thhs philosophy warm our mind
spoken like marriage which the two have become one as they always were be.
not like twilight story here we tolk about
maybe we at first blind to force this truth
but rude life make it in any way.
it is for reason to be shure
wher i set naw look throw window of this trip throw the wide sky
see the point
point of life lay over may stres.
For the whole the war is the temple of love.
bear this in ma heart nothing is great as this result.
i remamber now the first intervew with my first step in this story with Dr.jmal
who my mind worded beon his stone black eyes when his order come like faith
still i express the hope to exept my c v to work with his stafe as ph.
i remmber how i get out of his ofice
with closed teeth and expressed his words
“fly to sindpad”
what in earth must to do
fly and for home
why he now
i don’t think circumstance determined me to accept the invitation to that man to resarch about a new drug and how discover that
why i
i still new in this doman
like he fire me in his reqist but must i do that to have work
but why he?
“what can i pet you ?”
i looked up from my mobile for moment.
i short in reply in that moment.
that kind of man who spent most of his free time at the prayer in sufii mode
set befor me
“coffe..black”
i recognized his by photograph from his nimbuzz profile
when we had tolk throw it befor we give up befor 4 years.
i changed my name thats tine at first and so many time over our chat room
but now what
the waitress retun with my coffe and his tea mug
after uncomfortable smile
“i have got here coz your new discover only i have a few question”
i frozen when he return his gaze from away.
“asmaa..please.. i’am not with them. we’d be meeting under far different circumstance.
why went away like that.
are your famely safe throw war in syria
why you with this company
you know that i don’t love petrol moy
i just love you coz that i naw here
you are here in jordan with me will be safe.
give up to all thing and come with me”
“not like that .lith..i just have a few questions. i want talk about your treatment”
the words had slowly left his lovly lips
“i won’t talk about that
you hear me.leave me out of this.or i swear..?
“fine .lith.we will talk about that another time or you’ll never see me again.
i used to work for beauty combany.i really don’t know why you jumped far like that.
the war crush me in syria .more talk i can’t speake about.and this work in petrol land like yot name it give me birlland step to go on.”
“crossing to death line that”
“the death line what we see in blody war hinding more time”
“and my lote what?
outside your land?”
chill ran down me i can’t glanced around
i don’t love to be watched by his strong eyes.
“the only way you’ll truly be safe with me ”
“you know we stopped this talk many time befor.don’t you”
“what do you thind you still proud person .the war machine don’t break you ever”
“that’s why i am here naw.for work”
the fire was already jumpier in his eyes likd afrog on hot pavement.
“you know how i care so much about yot without much hope
like you see now
i tell you
you want what you want.must be pay for it.
marry me…asmaaa….”
this story from imaginaint maybe not real maybe yes…